In all honesty, and i'm not trying to rude to anyone who loves this stupid shit, I think Facebook is a waste of time. So, you want to keep in touch with your friends from ALL over the Freaking World!! So fuckin' what!! Facebook is such a stupid idea (though the movie was great). Half of my friends....no scratch that...All of my friends love that fucked up site.

I could really care less about what some idiot from kentucky thinks about my new Vans or my thoughts on if i should throw my DC's out or whatever the fuck ya'll do on that site. I've visited the place and its just full of assholes so really, whats the point of facebook? I don't care for the sluts that will tell you they're feeling horny or wearing black underwear today, i don't care if some football jockey got hurt on the field during the game. And i especially could rather care less if you missed the bus, forgot your coffee and all that other shit that you do. Really? Do you have to go onto Facebook and post that you finally got laid (friend did that last week) Facebook is Stupid.



And all for the people who get harrassed on there. Why go back and look up what's going on? is that really the only place you can go to make friends and see whats the latest gossip? If being shot down by other people really what you want? Why return to it?

Just delete your profile and all will be right in the world. Quit giving a fuck about what people think about you and start being more independent. MOVE ON in other words. Surely, people are better than that to be paying attention to what a bunch of lazy punkasses have to say about them.



Sorry for whatever inconvience this post may have caused but I really have a thing against Facebook. I know about three people who commited suicide because somewhere out there in the world called them slut, whore, and bastard.

I really hate people sometimes. When something is lost or someone did this... you wanna know you gets fucking blamed? Me. Yeah. Like today. I was just sitting minding my own business when my asshole of a brother comes in and starts yelling at me for where is mom's fucking iPad. I was like WHAT THE FUCK??! I mean seriously? Why fucking ask me when I didn't see that stupid thing. Instead of listening to me, he continues to yell at me which I could fucking care less because I know I'm right. What the fuck. And then my dad comes down and tells my brother to shut up (which made me happy) and then... DAD starts yelling at ME. WHAT THE HELL????! FUCK YOU! It makes me sooooooooo mad!!!! I just wanna punch something or someone!

After that I call my friend and then SHE blames ME for TELLING a certain SOMEONE about SOMETHING I didn't really KNOW about!!!! I hate people. I REALLY hate people. Those who think there some hot shit, those who just pose off to impress people, those stupid ass jocks, those stupid ass cheerleaders (No offense if you are ANY of these.) Those freaking couples that block your fucking way to class, those big ass group of people who think there some hot shit just because there surrounded by assholes who could really care less about you, those pot heads that judge people, THAT fucking teacher who blamed me for CHEATING when some fucking asshole was shouting answers! Deaf asshole. Like what the hell?! I'm sitting and doing my work when you effing blame me for something I CLEARLY DIDN'T DO!!!! FUCK OFF!!!!!!!

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sorry but that felt really good. Thanks for you time. :)

ASDFGHJKL; .... Yeah... Thats how I feel right about now. I was having an AMAZING time at our school dance tonight with Caitlin and everyone else, but of course, I've got to go for the stupid asshole guy again. Kyle and Caitlin told me not to, but they know I just need a little love so they disapproved, but let me anyway. We kissed multiple times. We got pictures together of just us by the profesional photographer. We sat and held hands or stood and held onto each others bodies all night long. You know what I have waiting for me on facebook when I get home? A message from him. Saying he shouldn't have kissed me, that I was just so good looking tonight he wasn't thinking straight. He told me to tell anyone that saw us kiss that it was nothing, because it was nothing. (In translation, all I wanted to do was fuck you) I chewed his ass out. That the last fucking straw. He has hurt me over and over again but I've given him chance after fucking chance, but when you tell me that what happened between us meant NOTHING, then theres a problem between us. That is the one thing you DO NOT tell a girl that has been giving you chance after chance for over a year. He is one of the biggest fucking assholes ever.

I am so god damn done with all these idiot guys. Why can't I just get a guy that lives close by as in no more than 30 mins away and actually likes me for me, doesn't give a flying fuck about all the kissing and sexual content (not that there wouldn't bey any of that), and cares about ME. Doesn't give a fuck that I have purity ring and I refuse to go all the way. Doesn't give a fuck that maybe I don't want to just make out while watching tv and laying in my bed. Maybe I want to go out and have a DATE. Does no one know how to DATE anymore!? You go on a few dates, get to know each other, and THEN ask to go steady with them! You don't just start going out with them! God get to fucking know them more to fucking make sure! You won't hurt the girl that much if you just date her first! God thats the whole point of dating! To see if you want to take it further, see if it might last.

BUT NO. I had one date with the last guy and he asks to go steady with me, yeah I really did want to by then because we talked every night, got to know each other, had fun and went on dates even while being together, not just chilling out at home, but no. I can't even have that one last for a whole month. I can't even hold a MONTH LONG relationship! What makes them all run away by week 2 or 3!? GOD DAMNIT! I'm so fucking tired of being like this!

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*FANGIRL MOMENT*

Sorry everyone, but I gotta rant about my newest obsession!!

Anyone who knows about Kuroshitsuji aka Black Butler could probably guess this.

I HAVE SEBBYXCIEL FEVER!!!! :

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I'm such a Yaoi fangirl sometimes ^///^ This, however, is BEYOND OBSESSION. I wanna make a backpack with them two on it, and a purse, t-shrit, you name it, I want it!! I'm so crazy about the couple I'm planning on making my own SebbyxCiel fanfiction!!! EEEEEEEK~! I just hope I'll think of the plot soon, because during school it'll be kinda hard to write about two guys with all the homophobs around TT.TT. I also gotta start drawing the two!! They're such a cute couple and I love them to DEATH!! *squeee*

Anyways, that's my rant for now, teeehhheeeee!!

UGH! Relationships suck!!! I actually have someone who likes me, but only to find out that they are a total man whore. It all started with me and him (we started out as friends) and some friends on the bus playing would you rather and we had to DO what we would rather. So mine was kiss my best friend or sit on this guy, Kyle's lap. I choose the lap because no WAY I'm I kissing anyone. I wanna save these lips for the 'one'. So I sit down on his lap for the whole bus ride and I REALLY liked him more then a friend because he was funny and we would always act goofy around each other, so I'm thinking ohmigod! His arms are around me and his chin on my shoulder.

SO then I hear that he's going to ask me out and he does and I agree. So when the school day was over, we hold hands, we hug, we take things slow since it was my first boyfriend and I didn't want to mess up. I'm nervous and he says goodbye and I say goodbye MOVING ON TO THE NEXT DAY!!

This girl asks me if it was true if I was going out with him and I said yes. She didn't believe me so I told her to ask him for herself. We she approaches him to ask if it was true, his sorry ass was saved by the bell. He bolted out of the room like his life was doomed. I thought alright... she'll ask later. So, I walk pass him many times in the hallway and when I say "Hi Kyle!" holding my arms out or my hand, his gives me this 'sup' nod and then rushes away. WHAT THE FUCK??! I've watched my friends with their guys and NONE of them act like THIS!!! So I pushthat aside since I am a new to this so I think it's suppose to happen and that he was just shy.

3rd hour comes and me and him have the same class. I walk over going to ask him what's up with him today, but he puts his arm around me... for 10 seconds because his friends walk in and he pushes me away like shit. I'm a little annoyed and I hear my friends saying what a total ass he was, but I think that something was up, so I push it aside. School is done and I'm waiting to say goodbye, when I see him he's in a big circle with his friends and laughing with a couple of girls. I think whatever, just friends. I call his name and he sees me and WHAT does he give me?? A 'sup' nod and walks away.

When I'm in the car with my mom, guess who texts me? Kyle. He says hey babe, and then we just text each other. The next day comes by and he STILL isn't doing anything. He ignores me and I'm starting to think he was embarrassed to go out with me in the first place. That seriously hurts and the only time we EVER talk to each other is over text. I'm starting to get pissed off and it's like 2 days into the relationship. I see him laughing with his friends and so I tell him (over text yesterday) to come talk to me because we need to hang out, just us. He says alright, but he had HOMEWORK to finish on 3rd hour (since that class is a blow off class) so I said I'll wait. I'm sitting alone and I would talk to some people until he came over, but he never did. He would sit there doing his homework until the end of class. Now that we've broken up (I don't even think this was a relationship at first) he doesn't do his homework in the class anymore and it started the next day after our break up.

HE PISSES ME OFF!!!!!!!!!!!! SO I break up with him. I tell him that it was over and hear is what he says to me... "You mean our relationship?" ARE YOU SERIOUS????!!! DID THE MEMORY OF aSKINg me OUT JUST GOT WIPED CLEAN OUT OF YOUR MIND???!! after all that drama he wants me back and I say no. I'm not going through that and it's because he doesn't know what he done wrong. I feel bad because now he hates me and I want to be friends again... but he gives me cold glares and acts like I'm shit. I can't get over it now. I think it's my fault because maybe he was shy or I was just getting over my head.

Relationships SUCK! High school sucks! Guys are CONFUSING! UGGGGHHHHH!!!!

Sorry for writing a lot! I just had to say this. >:( I shall now go watch chick flicks and HOPE that one day a guy would be just like the main dude in the movie that the heroine gets... like pride and prejudice. Or something like that. :\

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Okay. If I had a freakin dollar for everytime the school or the system screwed up my life, I'd been a freakin bajillionaire!! So is it that hard to replace my Geometry class with preAP?! APPARENTLY SO! They had to move my lunch around and now I'm stuck with a bunch of people I don't freakin know!!

So~ Instead I think I'll just hang around my favorite part of the school building. A nice quiet corner surrounded by windows and lights. Seriously though, these windows are huge and it's like i'm gonna fall off when i get near one. Strangely calming though....
Anyway, thanks for hearing me out and i hope your school is nicer to its students than mine is. Thank you and Good Afternoon.

I really am an idiot. I know most of my rants are about guys, but this seems to be the only place I can rant about them because my friends could care less about it though I let them rant about guys to me ALL the damn time but when I start to they ignore me. Then if I say anything about giving up on guys or not liking them or something on facebook people with their big fucking opinions that only talk to me when they want to give an opinion on something I said comment on it and start fights with me that I'd rather not have. And then tumblr has enough of my problems written all over it, so I come here.

But anywho. What I'm ranting about now. I'm honestly just tired of guys right now. I've got two guys crushing on me that I don't even remotely like and I don't even get why they've been crushing on me for so long. Theres nothing special here, why don't they just move along like the rest of them? But then theres the guys that used to crush on me and I would crush back somewhat, but they were more serious about it. I was being stupid at the time about it and was very confused about things and now I realize I really like them. But OF COURSE, they're taken now. I can't win.

And then on top of the guy problems I can't even find a single girl I like that lives in freaking state. Theres a girl I like out of state and is one of my best friends and I know I've hurt her before and I feel really, REALLY bad about that, but I said no more long distance for me. But I really like her too.

And then theres the other guy I like. He's amazing. He's perfect. He's the boy version of my best friend, which we were always kidding that all I need is a boy version of her and I'd be perfect. Maybe its because he's technically a girl (yes, he's transgender. Theres a reason I'm Pansexual, I could care less about what they are, I only care for personality) but he's just perfect. And he's taken!

So seriously. I cant win in this. All the people I want are taken or too far away. And some of them I was to slow to get and now I feel like a freaking idiot for it. I'm so tired of this...

Only place left I can rant about my friends because they follow me on freaking everything now... So I'm gonna rant about one of my best friends thats been pissing me off to no end lately.

So first I see that she's been deleting all the comments from a reblogged post on Tumblr, or deletes a few of them. Even if she doesn't delete the comments she deletes all the names of who wrote that comment. So I ask her why she keeps doing that and she says its because those comments are important to her. I think its one of the stupidest and rudest thing I've ever heard come out of her mouth, and lots of times she can say some pretty damn rude things that piss me off. So it kind of pisses me off that she does this to the posts because it takes away half of what that post was about and why it got so many notes in first place. So now whats shes been starting to do is deleting MY comments. Her "BEST" friend as she calls me all the damn time, though she knows I have a few different ones. If its a reply to something that you're supposed to reply to like "write this if you this" or something like that and when I reply she keeps what I say, but she deltes my personal comments about it. Or if I comment on a picture and say something about it, like one of them was an art piece I've seen in person and was talking about, she deletes the whole thing I wrote and says "I've seen this in person before!" I"m just like... You couldn't be nice enough and say "I have too" instead? Thats just a huge pet peeve of mine when it comes to her...

So she moved away to Cali about a month or more ago and today she started her first day of school there. She KNOWS my classes start at 9am and that ALL this week is exams. She fucking texts me during my exams to complain about her school. The only good thing for her was that I didn't have a second exam today so I got to go home early. So when I reply a few times and she replies with "Its fine" or "Mhm" I stop replying. She knows if you don't try and keep the convo going I will just not reply. So later she texts me while I'm taking a nap because finals have been making me so tired she says "I'm eating lunch alone ):" I don't get it until 2 hours later when I wake up, so I don't bother replying. Why can't she just go and talk to people? This is the fourth fucking time she's changed schools during High School, she should be used to this by now. Instead I see her posting on everyones facebook while shes at school telling them shes scared and that she wants them to text her. Okay, first off half of us are at school doing finals, and the rest are just in school like her friends that don't go to my school.

So my phone messes up and won't let me send messages to anyone so I get a message on facebook from her. This is what it says:
"I have had a shit day and I really needed to talk to you and I needed your help getting through this!!!!! What was so terrible that you couldnt just send me a text telling me that you didnt really want to talk. At least I wouldnt have been waiting and hoping that you would! I was freaking out cause I thought that maybe you lost it or got hurt or something!! I Dont want to talk about it now because Id rather cry and sleep."
So first off, why is she worrying herself on her first day of school and over reacting thinking that I'm hurt? And second off, obviously she wants to talk about it because she's fucking sending me the message!

So I reply with this:
"Okay my phone fucked up for one, so it wasn't sending anything. And why would you be flipping out that I'm hurt if I'm not replying? That honestly doesn't make sense to me. I understand you had a shitty day, but you're not going to have me there to hold your hand all the time. You were texting me while I was in freaking finals, for one, and two I was asleep afterwards because I'm so god damn exausted from the finals and I need some energy for tomorrow since I'm doing so many things for my birthday. Again, I'm sorry my phone fucked up, I'm sorry you had a shitty day, but maybe you know how shitty I've felt before when not a single person in the whole wide world would reply to my stuff for days. You have it a lot better than you make it out to be, and I love you to death, but toughen up."
I had to say it to her. I am so god damn tired of my friends just walking all over me. Every time I don't reply to them its the fucking end of the world and I'm the biggest fucking bitch alive. But every time they don't reply to me I act as if its nothing though I'm upset. Because every damn time I need them they're just like la de da de da, I'm gonna just not reply to Kendra until the very next fucking day when she doesn't give a fuck anymore! But I don't yell at them or anything. I just say "Its fine." and go on with my day. But when I'm not there for them when they need me I'm called a bitched and I get cussed out! I'm so tired of this. So fucking tired of this.

I'm really thankful this ranting page was made.

OK, I'm so done with family. My dad is a homo-phobe (<--I'm bi). My grandma was raised in a really sheltered place, so I am just the wrong type of person since I use cuss words to express myself. And most of the cuss words arn't even cuss words! It's total bullshit. And then my aunt is going around, telling my other family how much of a pest I am and how I'm a lesbian whore with too many issues that shouldn't be displayed publically. My uncles are downing me cuz I refuse to let my dad date ANYONE until I move out, because I'm completely uncomfortable with a stranger lady in my territory, taking my dad away from me. I love my family, but they really get on my nerves. My dad and I fight every night about the stupidest shit he comes up with. My ex-mom is a total bitch that disapproves of everything I do and talks shit about me to my aunt while I'm not around. My grandma tries to support me but I'm not that 'innocent, pretty girl' that I use to be. My cousins hate me for not being a slut with hot boyfriends and my own tan. My friends arn't being any better at school. My best friend, who'd I do ANYTHING for, has been acting really distant lately and I'm tired of it all.
I'm not apologizing for who I am.

I'm am so sorry for what I'm about to say. I don't mean to hurt anyone.
But what is it with people? Saying, oh shit i hate my life. I just want to escape for a whie so when i come back, everything will be dandy. Well. Life isn't that easy. It never will be. We all talk about how we have problems but does anyone really want to listen to what others are going to try to do to help you feel better? Nobody cares about that. Some people just don't care about 'solutions' and problemsolving. These people piss me off, frankly. I love my friends but I just hate it when they start looking for pity and start going all suicidal on me. It scares me to death because when you say your going to do something. Then your most likely going to do it. Psychology proves it. Over and over agian. I'm afraid someone is going to do something stupid...And its scary. Gosh, its just terrifying. And what can you do? When your friend is on the other line and a thousand miles away from you. That feeling of uselessness is just so damn hard to deal with. I get so scared. I don't know what to do. And if you leave, cause you don't know what to do, they'll think you're tired of them.
Dammit, why are people so sensitive...?

I'm ranting about love again... So ignore if you don't want to hear me say it once again.

I am so tired of being single. So very tired. Again, I haven't ever had a relationship that was in state and lasted over a month. I hate it so much. The girl I like doesn't live here and I don't think she knows I like her... I know she used to know, but she might think I no longer do... And then theres the boy here.... And oh my god, when his gf isn't around I just want to kiss him so much and hold onto him tightly and just... *sigh* I love his gf so much, she's close to me... But I don't think they're going to be together for much longer, the way they've been acting... And... I just... I feel really bad for hoping they will break up... Because maybe it'll give me a chance with him, FINALLY... I was about to tell him I liked him when I found out they were dating... Pretty much KILLED me.... Then I finally told him and he's really obvlivious to people that like him, so he was like oh, okay... Then my best friend told him... and he was like shit... she wasn't lying. I had to keep myself from crying about it at rehershal today because he would have asked why and I would have had to tell him because I tell him everything and just ugh... but I put a cover up on how I'm so hurt about it... Cuz I kind of have a crush on this other guy... But I think he has a gf, though you can never tell with him to be honest... and i feel weird getting closer to him, though i've been trying to.... so the other guy most likely thinks thats what i've been all meeeh about lately... but no... its because of him...

Hey everyone!

I know I haven't been online for awhile but things have gotten to the point that I need a counselor. I'm also sick, like fever, sore throat, and stuff. I can't eat much and I'm getting really tired all the time. My friends have become secret-keeping liars and I just can't put up with it anymore. So if I'm not online as much, you'll know why. So . . . That's the jest of it. Thank you for your time.

~ Sakuda

My best friend is the biggest bitch in the whole fucking wide world!!! She has been SO fucking rude to me lately! Ever since Spring Break she's fucking ignored me and rolled her eyes at me when I talk to her! I want her to just go fucking die in a fucking burning hole! I've never been this fucking pissed at her in my god damn life! I've known her for 3 years and we've had our times before, but this time it has gone WAY TO FUCKING FAR. The ONLY fucking time we EVER get into fights is when she has a stupid fucking boyfriend and she decides to be a fucking princess! She apparently can't 'take my problems on top of her stress right now'. BULL FUCKING SHIT! Your only fucking stress is from you damned boyfriend and you fucking know it! During our college trips she actually talked to me and had fun and what not, but after that she got into this mood again! Its because she's really good friends with Haley again and she has a boyfriend!! NEITHER do any good for her! Her boyfriends turn her into a FUCKING ROYAL BITCH. Today she wasn't at school and so she didn't bitch me out for not contacting her I texted her in the MORNING before school started to ask here where she was. Its almost fucking 8PM and she hasn't replied! So I got on facebook and posted on her wall saying "I guess you didn't get my text. I hope you're alright" and she fucking deletes it! Now I've sent her a message saying "So I'm guessing I'm being ignored since you didn't reply to my text and you deleted my post. Sorry for bugging you." So she fucking replies "the smartest thing for you to do right now is to leave me alone". YEAH FUCK YOU TOO CAITLIN. I HOPE YOU BURN IN FUCKING HELL YOU FUCKING BITCH. You've done it this time! I'm so fucking pissed I'm crying and shaking and have to keep retyping things because I don't spell anything right! GO TO HELL!

A rare rant from I, now where do I start? Okay, my darn work that I work at. I for one work at a company with the desks and stuff and taking calls. Well, I do my job right and the other day my boss told me that my work still needs improving. It is his way of saying that my work is just up to his standards when really it is! I answer the phone more times than all the other darn workers, and not only that I willing run everywhere and run errands for people! I told him that at our meeting last weekend and you know what he did? Gave my a darn deduction to my paycheck! I was like really shocked, well beyond it! Is it so bad for a hard working man like myself to be honest? I even had some of my friends tell him that I was a hard worker and he totally ignored them and told me not to get anyone else to stick up for me cause that proves my childish behavior. Thing is they did it on their own, I didn't ask them to do it!

Beyond that, he even made me take the night shift and work everything else on my own completely overworking me! The last days have been hard cause I am like the only one working really seriously in this darn job I have! Not only that but he changed the dress code to where everyone has to wear suits and stuff. A normal dislike of mine. XD But, really I am mad about it cause I am not a dressy kind of guy. I am mainly ranting about my darn office job. I apologize to those that I have been Rping with. Recently, my job has been constricting me and I am just glad to get on here for a change. Missed all of you guys. Yatta, though chances are I may be deprived again from the computer....Eh.....DX